“U BLAME ME” – How do you have the nerve. Every time we’d talk you would pass me off to everyone else, even JANKU, (Whom I HATE), especially after what she said about me. I’m sure your think “damn I shouldn’t have said anything.” Well it’s too late.
The main reason why I feel uncomfortable talking to you is the mindless bullshit we talk about you know what I am talk about. The same old shit, SCHOOL, WORK, etc… and nothing personal, which I miss the most, but the times they are a changing and people do move on.
Do you even realize why there is the tension between us? Do you remember “The Night?” I’ve replayed this night in my head a thousand times.
1. We were running late to the after party and you wanted to rush in the club. I wanted to wait and see what everyone is doing and go as a group. YOU decided to leave. Well I’m sure you remember what happened next, some fucking lonely loser grabs your booty, and guess who gets blamed ME!!!
2. Jigu and I realize you had left and we rushed to the line, just in time to get a scolding from you. After 10 minutes in line you were cold so I offered you my coat to share with your cousins.
3. We get in the club and Janku was under 21, so she went across the club to get in. So I asked you to stay in the side of the club, thinking that the club was packed and it would be better to find Janku and bring her to you. I admit I was wrong, I’m not a clubber so my thought to bring you two together, not leaving you by yourself. I AM SO SORRY FOR THAT!! I REGRET THAT DECISION EVERYTIME I THINK ABOUT IT. But I was just trying to be useful and helpful. But for one simple mistake my whole night and our relationship was ruined.
4. You stormed off to find Janku. I followed after you but as much as I tried I knew you weren’t turning around to look at me for the rest of the night. And you didn’t for the whole night. From that moment on you were drinking at the bar with Mohan, dancing with Mohan, chatting it up with Mo & and when I saw that I knew it was over between us.
5. Nikhil was the only one to console me. Seeing what was going on between us & how you were talking with Mo, “He knew” without saying one word what was going on. DAMN I didn’t think that you would ditch me in one swift instance for one stupid mistake & ruin the months of wonderful times we had. I DON’T UNDERSTAND.
a. I fly down to see YOU for VALENTINES DAY.
b. I know you told me it wasn’t serious, and that I might get hurt. But WOW!! But when you’re right you Right. But it happened so fast (10 mins) and without any reason. You might think that you were too drunk to remember, but I think that’s just a cop out.
c. I should have listened to everyone about how you would have hurt me & when I say everyone I mean Rave, Ravi, Nikhil, Samir, & you!!! But it helped me understand 3 things; myself, my friends & families opinions, & what kind of person you are.
6. After the club you were all over Mo outside the club. All I remember was the flirting that you and Mo were enjoying all a while total ignoring me.
7. At Denny’s don’t you remember how quite I was, I’m sure you don’t. Because the whole time I was thinking “Man what a fool I am.”
8. The next morning I just wanted to pack my shit and leave. Jigu was kind enough to drop off. I said bye to everyone, and waited to the last possible second to say bye to you.
So there it is, my story, in a nutshell. I miss the old times where we used to talk about personal stuff. But time causes people to change. I think where we are in our lives now makes both of us happy, so why ruin that or cause more stress in our lives. Please don’t think that I hate Mo or you for any of this, because I know both of you; and you guys make a great couple. I definitely have no grudges with Mo, from what I know of him from our last visit and of what everyone describes of Mo, he’s a great guy. It’s just uncomfortable talking about personal things with someone I use to have feelings for. But know that I will always be there if you need someone’s advice or help. If you have any questions about this babble please reply back. Take Care Jadi MA!!! Say hi to everyone (Sagar, Jigu, & Mo)
P.S. Sorry I took so long, I’ve been talk a while to figure out my thoughts and relay them in a concise manner.
P.P.S. Show this to whom ever you would like, I am just explaining my side of the story.
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